It's been a while since I felt any sort of motivation to get up and do anything. I don't think I suffer from depression as much as I suffer from a poor control of my blood glucose. After my visit to the endocrinologist yesterday, I got a cold wake-up smack to the face. He showed my my blood glucose levels and how wildly out of control they are. That would explain why I've been feeling like a wet napkin as of late.

Normal glucose blood levels should be around 110. My reading at the doctor's office was 365. I read how you slip into a coma once your number gets to around 600. This morning's reading was 386, and my last reading late this afternoon was at 315. I can't believe my body is going to shit so quickly, and so effortlessly. I feel really bummed out with everything coming at me all at once. I think if I could just change my motivation, I could tackle whatever gets thrown at me.